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how to be alone.

24 February, 2020

Loneliness is something I think about a lot. Are any of us ever really alone? Do we each have different ideas of what would make us feel whole? If we are all feeling the same empty loneliness, then does that bring us together somehow? I know I'm not really alone. I know people. I speak to other people on a regular basis. I've written about what it means to me to have a real conversation or connection or friendship and I've also written about the absence of them. It has already been said that interacting with other people or not actually being alone doesn't prevent that feeling of loneliness though, and I also know this.

Loneliness is something you can get used to. Something you can pretend doesn't actually happen, at least not to you. Loneliness can make you feel guilty, ungrateful for not appreciating what you have. It can creep in, knock on the door, look like introversion, and make you tell other people that you have "just been really busy lately." You can't just tell other people that you are lonely and ask them to fix it, you can't just explain in a way that makes sense, you can't just make it go away. There is no easy fix, no cure for that sinking feeling, only a facade that you put on while you wait for better days. There is just coping. And hoping. Until you aren't anymore.



girls who wear heels in the mosh pit

13 January, 2020

I went to a local rock show a little while ago where I saw these girls dancing in a mosh pit and it's something I've been thinking about for a while. I know this world (i.e. rocks shows, mosh pits) is something a lot of people don't know anything about or don't want to know about but when I go out sometimes and see the world, I always see really cool people doing really cool things. These girls looked like they were having the time of their lives and they were making space for themselves in a way that I've always wanted to, and I hope they never stop.


putting on a face | a poem

song lyrics that speak to me

22 November, 2019

These are just a few of my favorite lyrics from some of my favorite songs. I have a ton of lists on my phone including captions, quotes, and lyrics. There are also a million songs that have amazing lyrics that I haven't listed but nevertheless mean a lot to me.

What makes a song lyric special is either the way that the lyric is sung or the thoughtful word choice. There are songs that have terrible lyrics but still sound amazing because of the way that they sound, and on the other hand there are songs that center around the lyrics and are a type of poetry. I've noticed that I am really a person that is drawn to words and I have to notice what is being said in order to enjoy what is otherwise supposed to be just music, and when I find something really great I have to keep it my pocket or post it on my blog. Enjoy.


Art Q&A: where I am right now

28 October, 2019

If I were someone else and I were looking at my art, these are the questions I would ask. Or the questions that I think I have an answer to right now. I also think this will be nice to self-reflect on this in the future and see how my ideas change or stay the same.

I'm writing a manifesto of sorts, the artist's statement I am hesitant to turn into my teachers.  Questions and answers to myself, from myself.  And a few visuals of pieces I've been working on for way too long. Here you go.


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