Currently Listening To:

13 April, 2017

West Virginia by The Front Bottoms

Heavy Gloom by The Story So Far

Last Nite by The Strokes

Party Poison by My Chemical Romance

XO by Fall Out Boy

The Take Over The Breaks Over by Fall Out Boy

The Kids From Yesterday by My Chemical Romance

Nobody Puts Baby in the Corner by Fall Out Boy

All I Wanted by Paramore

Save Yourself I'll Hold Them Back by My Chemical Romance


How to Steal Parts of Other People

05 April, 2017

I find myself searching for the best parts of people to steal. I look at clothes and other superficial parts of people that I wish I had myself. I feel so shallow when I do it but I cant stop comparing myself to other people. I want to be nicer, more driven, have goals, anything other than who I am right now.

The slippery slope of insecurity is one I've fallen down before and I'm currently searching for another escape route. I make mood boards and tear apart bits and pieces of magazines; I watch movies and read books and search the internet. I feel like I'm plagiarizing every time I take a piece of someone else but I don't know how else to fill the holes in my own life.

I guess I'm just in a time of my life where I'm searching for an identity and struggling to find which parts of me are real. They say your personality stays constant your entire life but I couldn't feel farther from stable. Every situation brings out a different me and every time I try to catch them and weed out the imposters, they all blend together.

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